Today sucks. But why does today suck? If you're like me you can't even think through the migraine, using your brain makes things worse. So the second it dims enough that low lights wont leave me spinning, I take time to over think EVERYTHING. What did I eat the last week? How was my sleep? How has my water intake been? Did I drink or eat anything that might trigger a migraine? Whats my stress level been like? Check my vitamin log, did I get all the right vitamins at the right time? Did I sleep funny? Is there tension somewhere? Too hot? Too cold? Did I take my thyroid meds? Did I give enough time between thyroid meds and food? What about thyroid meds and vitamins? Hows my stress levels? Its an endless cycle of questions and contemplation. I just lost a whole day of my life and damn it if I don't want to know why. When you drop off the face of the planet for a day of much needed rest, that's one thing. When you miss a day that is spent in pain, that's a whole different kettle of fish.
My best guess for my suckage day? Not enough water and too much fun. By too much I mean I ate out for one meal and ordered pizza for another this weekend. The other possibility, or added combination, hormones...yep monthly hormones. So much fun. But you can take something like this and learn from it. Theres always something to take away from every experience.
Did you know back in August I participated in Shift Shop? Its the first program I've finished. Sure I missed a couple workouts and had to shift a couple workouts to the next day. I didn't follow the eating plan 100% but I did follow it pretty darn close and you know what?!? no headaches, no migraines, I slept well, I felt better, I had more energy, I was full all the time with super delicious food AND it was healthy!!! I lost 6 pounds. That doesn't seem like much when the goal is 166 pounds away but its something, especially with all the health issues I battle on a daily basis. Those 3 weeks were amazing. How I felt about everything in life was different then. Just absolutely everything was different. I felt great, I looked great, I had a brighter outlook on life. Its amazing how much better life is when you make the right decisions.
I'm feeling more determined than ever to make healthy choices for the rest of this month. I've been given a fantastic opportunity and I'm not going to miss out on a moment of it due to bad lifestyle choices. And now the lights of the computer screen have played havic on my head. Its time to close the lid and dim the lights and crawl back into my cocoon of darkness surrounded by my ever loving fur babies. Life is only worth it when you can live the life you dream. Make good choices, reach for the starts and don't let anyone ever tell you that anything is impossible.
